I'm not sure if this is my imagination, but ever since i got into real bondage action with my mistress. I must say....i'm a much more discipline person.

I mean seriously, there are many little things i hated doing before.....that i now found myself doing....like washing the dishes as soon as i get home.

The most crazy thing about it is....i actually enjoy it!

One of the most important factor being that my mistress hates it when i leave the dishes overnight. She would often punish me for my messy house works.

At first, i deliberably keep it messy because i enjoy the punishment too much....but as our BDSM game became more and more powerful....I then learned the true meaning of bondage and discipline.

It's kinda funny!

It seems like underneath my most fetish desire, i really enjoy people dominating me and command me to do things for them. But then, in the reality world.....this is not always the case.

My mistress told me that through good educated pain and pleasure....one can become a much better and discipline person. I couldn't agree more!

I've learned to cope more...I've been sleeping better, my anxiety level towards daily life has been reduced dramatically and i've become a much more powerful person inside.

Mentally, i was tougher!

If you think about it....it's not too hard to understand why?

Let's say you're an army and you went through a series of military training, i don't know about you...but i think that military men are more discipline than others. (Some are hot too...but sorry i'm taken!)

Why? Because they get punish for doing wrong things. (I hope Not my kind of punishment though...hehe)

Anyway, i was just trying to make a point here.

I believe that underneath many of us...we desire to be discipline!

Due to our ethical and high moral society (which is a good thing), there is not much way we can obtain submissive training.

Afterall, we wouldn't let our parents nor teachers spank our bum....right?

My theory is....bondage and bdsm is a way for us to explore our hidden desires (To be discipline is one of them). There are pains and rewards (pleasure) and through exploration of these two....one can really become a better and discipline person!

Therefore, if you have a hidden desire to be dominated, trained, punished and then pleasure by someone. Self bondage is NOT the answer.

So why do self bondage?